i know.. its not exactly New Year's Day. But this is the only time i can find to sit before my com again. So.. New Year's greetings to all my friends and a blessed year ahead.
Cant believe it.. there goes another year. I can jus remember sending out new year msgs to my friends that didnt went thru due to network congestions and stuff.. the next thing i know.. i said hi to 2006.
The begining of the year has always been a time of reflections and thanks giving and rededications etc. When i tried to look back to see wat happened.. it was difficult nad hard to swallow. Not that something really terrible happened.. jus that i couldnt comprehend how God intervened into my life, my family, my church.
My family has never been the same ever.. dun remember how it started but all i know is that there is so much more love for each other. Slowly we bring out the hurts we had before.. bring it before the Lord and healed it. Its not perfect.. but it's more than i deserved. Thank You Jesus.
So much more to give thanks for.. how He turned my church around(Lord i pray there's more to come!).. for e friends around me(You know i love u all!).. for the good food I'm stuffed with!(oh yeah..the food deserves a mention!ha) so much more.
Thru all the praise and thanks giving.. not everything has been smooth sailing. Some times it feels like i'm shouting into someone's ears and she's doesnt even know you're there. Sometimes i still put up a front with my friends.. a painted grin. Not that i needed to.. but i think i'm jus used to it. I forgotten who is really behind this mask. A huge part of me praying hard that someone come tell me wat i already know.. tell me who i really am. Really tiring living for others.. am i doing it wrong? Of cos i am..
A midst all the blessing and annointing.. all the pursuit for His presence.. i've been asking. Is there a more sensitive way to do it. I have seen ppl pushed away by hurtful words.. ppl left out in the cold.. hardly able to come back in the loop. Tension's almost there. I know all the causes are good.. but are we doin it wrong? I pray God pours His love into our church.. and give us spiritual sensitivity.
After we experience Him every single day.. i pray God blesses our hands.. in all we do, and more importantly.. let our lives be a living testimonial to His love.. loving one another, even the unlovable, like the way Jesus loved us. Let us always have a word of encouragement n thanks giving hung on our lips.. let compassion always be in our hearts.. and His words always in our minds.
I dun have the answers.. all i know is He loves me.. and will never leave me. So i praise You.. the God who gives and takes away.. i lift my heart to You in thanks giving a worship. All i pray.. is Your will be done.Amen
