Before You, i am nothing
i had nothing,
no identity, no worth.
To the world.. i'm worthless.

But i'm precious.. because You said i am.

And suddenly, i have everything.

The measure of a man

Wat makes a man? How do we measure? By deeds? By conduct? By acheivements? By whose.. or rather wat standards do we measure our values?

i've been wondering. Instinctively, i turned to the internet, hoping the information highway might hav something to say.

My inquiry returned pages and pages of non conclusive crap.. some leadership philosophy and mainly lyrics of a couple of songs of that title. One sung by American Idol runner up, Clay Aiken.. the other older song by the same title sung by none other than Elton John. Ironicly, wat would a self-professed homosexual know about the measure of a MAN? I checked the lyrics.. it's true, he knows nuts about being a man.

Anywae.. my search on the internet cast more shadows than it shed any light at all on the suject. I'm not here to answer that question.. i've got no idea wat that ideal measure is or how i measure up to that standard. However, i do know i've been searching the wong places.

Think the answer is probably in that book on my table called the Bible. I'm sure it's in there.

Been too long since i blogged. Not than i havent got the time.. lots of time the past 2 weeks to jus slap a few lines.. but somehow i'm dumb strucked infront of my computer.

I think i'm the number one fan on my blog (not sure if ever more than 5 person ever reads my blog..ha), and everytime i read it as if it's written by someone else. It intrigues me wat this guy daniel has been goin thru. i'm sure i'd be laughing at him if i ever meet him. Cant help but feel a certain proximity to him. Maybe i do know him. Who knows?

Its been an amazing spiritual journey the past 2 weeks. Seeing how God is working. Thank God for the front row seat that i've got. He's given the Youth Ministry so much relevations and visions. Something we havent seen happening before. The Flame of revival so surely befalling upon the church. He seems to hav got something for me to do. I'm listening.

Never felt so assured of His plans in my life.. feels like i'm taking a bus home.. no idea which route the bus is goin but i know for sure i'm goin home. I'm still human.. sometimes i'm still afraid.(okie okie.. most of the time i'm afraid..) but i'm learning to let go and let God. Feels good.. imagine..i'm living in His promise! How cool is tat! Cant imagine everytime i board the bus doubting if the bus driver really knows his way.ha.

Lots of things coming up in my life.. Wallaby trip to Australia.. David Tao comin to town.. Passion24/7 up rite next.. lots more to go. Never has there been a more eventful period in my life. Suddenly got this urge to suck up all the life there is out there! To chase after experiences.. to laugh.. to cry.. to run away.. to come right back to where i begin. Even had the urge to get married and be a father.ha. (Oie!..Dun laugh! i know u are!).

Honestly.. i really envy strong christian couples. Always there to pick each other up when they're down. Such a blessing to be serving, praying and growing with your spouse. Bone of my bone.. flesh of my flesh. Such is the relation God intended of this union. A proximity that no friend can replace. beautiful, amazing and vivid description. I'm praying for my Eve too.

Lord.. if it's in Your will.. *wink* You know wat to do ya! Amen.

Dear heavenly Father, Help me, i pray,
To honor You with all that i do today.
Amen