Fly Away

When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer
to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as I crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
Silver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Corrinne's debut

1.Fly Away
2. Same Side of the Moon
3. Something About You
4. Fall to Fly
5. If You Didnt Love Me
6. Stay on the Road
7. Mr Beasley
8. All that i Need
9. Walk away
10. Will You Remember Me
11. Journey
12. Mr Beasley(Unplugged)

opening my box of choc!!

opening choc has nv been so rewarding before.. not until now.

u will nv imagine the kind of anticipation for something u know u wont regret doin! ha
all this for a piece of chocolate

Amazing!

chased out of the library when i was having a little tea discussion with Xavier at compass point. Guess they were closing and we didn't care. We jus carry on sip our tea at the corner of the cafe..ha. Met up with xav regarding work again.. things are forming up..again.. we had a little fun..again.

wats new?

i gotta get something done.. really tired.. havent been sleeping much lately. late nights(around 1 plus 2 am).. Wee early mornings(like 5 plus am!!) and i hardly got time to breathe in office. really need a break soon.. soon i hope.

Actually wanted to ask ppl out for a movie.. but i hardly got the time. sianz. so many movies that i missed out. always got things to do..somewhere to go. Am i really that busy or am i jus tryin to make myself look busy? i never know.

Gemi and Vida bought me chocolate from Royce todae.. apparently it has to be refridgerated. looks really delicate.. how to eat?? looks expensive. cant believe i'm eating my present. ha. Xav reminded me of my silly idea of "gold plating" the choc. then can keep forever. ha. silly. wanted to do tat to a present from gemi when i was in sec sch. Looking back now.. how silly can i get? ha.

obviously very silly.

~~~

wat if i spoke and you couldnt hear a sound
wat if i turn and you're not around
wat if my love is returned when it's given
wat if i cant find a place to settle down

it's not the first time, not even close
it's probably not worth it, but i'll never know
but i see you turned into a gust of dust
my secret fantasy gone in a single blow
~~~

The only constant is change

they say that the only constant is change..

busy start of the week.. havent had enough sleep. intensely staring into my monitor at work.. so engross that my mind was floating away. Then it hit me.. how did i get here? the last time i check..i was still a poly student with floppy hair.. sloppy shirts. Now i'm here in green. starring at a stupid computer screen.(it wasnt meant to ryhme).

wondering how i have changed over the year.. my fingers still clicking on the mouse.. eyes still starring.. mind still wondering. It couldnt be more true. i'm not the same person i was.. or rather.. i'm not who i appeared to be. I hardly know who daniel really is. Probably i nv found out before. change is the only constant.

i like to look at myself in a third person's point of view.. looking at how daniel response to situation. looking at his strength and deficiencies.. getting to know myself everydae. but still.. he surprises me everytime he

runs away. Wondering wat he's thinking. wondering wat i ought to be thinking. thru the times.. it's nv the same.

think it's about time i give up thinking of who i ought to become and be who i'm meant to be. i've got better things to be doin than jus lookin at myself. i wanna look to Him..i'm wanna look at people around me.. i want people to see Him when they look at me. Change is the only constant? LOrd You're the only constant in my life.

And i welcome You.

my NINJA TURTLE drawn by Grace! ha..not bad eh.. now it sits quietly beside my monitor. ha. One mistake though.. Izznt the head band suppose to cover the eyes as well? haha. nvm..makes it one of a kind..even more special rite! ha

my new key chain.. anyone wanna name my new dog? ha

Old as it is... still my fav dog.. Yours Truly!

BooM!

was at the NDP final rehearsal yesterdae.. shooting some ndp footages for 3signal.
spent my whole dae there for that 2 hour's event. only the fireworks was worthwhile.

Been sometime since i saw fireworks. At least 2 years plus i guess. Quite an amazing sight still everytime i see one.took some snap shots of the fireworks while i was filming.

Met this photographer uncle who was vieing for my position to shoot some shots of the F16. ha. Flaunting his Nikkon DSLR .. but quite a nice guy i must say. Lots of babes in the spectators too! hee. but they all come in pairs.. haiz.

Safe in a CrAzY World

1. Little Superhero Girl

2. Save Me

3. Free

4. Everything In Its Time

5. Safe In A Crazy World

6. Let It Go

7. Angel In Disguise

8. If I Kissed You

9. The Birthday Song

10. Every Beat Of My Heart

11. Free (Radio Edit)

www.corrinnemay.com

Everything in its time

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

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ok.. i'm no longer pissed anymore. :)

Yesterdae was a day of mixed emotions..rage..sympathy.. joy.. and relief. And in the end of it all.. music made my dae.

Yesterdae started out to be one of the worst daes i had in ages. Me getting sick.. ppl pissing me off.. work pulling me apart. yada yada. U know the story. Jus wanted to get the dae over and done with.. on my way back home from TP for a collection. Only one thing on my mind.. my bed.

Amazingly.. i was still on bus 87, i'm sure tv mobile's not showing anything musical.. but i kept hearing corrinne may in my head.. -The Birthdae Song by Corrinne May.(cliche! ha) I dun even know where the heck i heard it before. It's jus stuck to my head. Then this suggestion came to me.. "How about i buy myself a cd?" Damn.. how lamentable is that.. buying yourself a birthdae gift. ha. but i really cant help it.. her voice is calling.

I only heard of Corrinne's songs on the radio around 2 months back.. was wondering who is that beautiful voice. Stunted me for awhile. Been asking around.. no one seems to know who she is. Finally after 2 weeks of asking.. i got a name. "I think it's Corrinne May or something" somebody told me.

As the pirate i am.. i'm determined to download every available song she has on the internet! hee. But i didnt. not that i didnt want to. Seems to hav some divine intervention that keeps preventing me from downloading her songs. when i'm at my computer.. i kept forgetting her name.. no kidding! ha. hours became daes..daes become months. i'm back on bus 87 without Corrinne.

I was still down with a bad flu and fever.. but first thing i did once i alighted was drag my weary body to the nearest cd shop. Not sure i knew wat i wanted to buy. i only had a name. Corrinne May. There it is.. she lays silent on the rack. I was looking at her..she looking down in her cd cover like she knows i'm lookin. I could almost hear her humming to me. "i'll take this" i told the counter girl. The fastest cd purchase i even made.

Reached home..took a bath.. popped some pills. Slipped the cd into the player. Now i understand why music heals. Laying on my bed.. track 1.. 2.. reading the lyrics.. getting to know the voice i've been curious for so long. So beautiful.. not only the voice.. but the lyrics walks right up to me. Been a long time since a song brought a tear to my eye. No.. not becos the song is sad or it caught a string in my heart.. simply becos it's so real.. so beautiful and hopeful. I knew she must be a Christian. I checked..she is. i'm not suprised.

My God is interesting.. jus when i needed a song.. he puts an album into my life.ha. Thanks you Jesus.

Pissed

not a good day.. not a good day at all.. i woke up with a slight fever and a sore throat.. work is piling.. i'm late for work.. and the thing that really pisses me off is that 2 of the guys from my office took off when there is work to be done. And trust me.. i know they've got nothing important to do.

i've had enough of their attitude! i'm supposed to assisting them becos of their inexperience. that i understand. but they dun seem to have any sense of urgency or pride in their work. THat.. i cannot stand.

Sitting here..breathing fire.. not sure if it's becos i'm having a fever or becos i'm really so damn pissed!!! I havent been so pissed for a quite a while. Really feel like slaming the CPU on the floor! i think it's not gonna help..but i'm jus damn pissed.

wats so happy about birthdaes when ppl around me pisses me off all the same.

pissed

old blog

realised i had a blog.. tot it's not working anymore. only 4 or 5 entries in it i think.
all written in 2003 when i was still having my attachment at Litespeed. pretty funny and embaressing to read it now though..ha. Short as it may be.. i dun wanna lose this memory. http://erewwe.blogspot.com/. To think that all this while i tot i didnt have a blog.ha.

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
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Dying here without a song. Thats the last thing i wanna do. As much as i'd like to..

i seem to be left out cold without a song. Yes.. life goes on.. but life without tat note..that melody.. that tune tat's stuck to the back your head.. life without all tat sucks.

Feels like i'm caught in a mime.. a silent movie. Nothing seemed to mean anything anymore.

I know it's not true.

i know i gotta find back that song!

SentimentaL rEasons

~It is not who you are.. its who i am when i'm with you...~

0040am... Yep.. i know.. it's the weekends again. jus came back home.. with a half written msg on my phone ... which once again will never reach it's intended recipient.

2 days since my last entry.. had a hectic weekend.. talking.. debating.. counseling.. sharing.. listening..walking.. staring.. rushing.. laughing and crying. So much had happend. i guess only so much CAN happen.

Fri night came back starving.. didnt have lunch tat dae. But nv fear! my wonderful mummy cooked up curry awaiting for me to come home!! ha. thank God for her. she didnt even know if i was coming home.. but she cooked the curry jus in case i came home hungry.. and i did. ha. It was delicious! had like half the pot of curry for myself.. picked up some bottled drink from the fridge to drink. Turns out the green apple flavoured drink is volka! ha. taste really good though. But one major prob.. i was so full and tipsy tat i knocked out after a nap at 8 pm.ha. the next moment i opened my eyes was sat morning already. wat a way to sleep the night away.

Met up with Ted and Xav to consolidate some admin stuff for ASK in the late morning. However.. when we presented the idea informally to mushi.. the feedbacks were not too inviting. Alot of our proposal is assumtion i guess. Had to re-adjust the proposal to match the cricumstances. cant say much abt it here though.. jus quite disapointed. Guess it might be a good thing that he raised the issues early.. or the impact might have been far worst. Nevertheless.. i know God wants the best for his ministry.. and i know i gotta give my best shot at this. Not gonna be disheartened by a little setbacks.. i'm gonna grow from experience to experience.. from strength to strength. Till i get it rite..

Grace passed me my birthdae present todae.. hee. ( THankS BaBY!!!) She actually made this card with this skipping ninja turtle on it.( ha. my fav emoticon!!) It has nv came across to me that she had any incline in the arts. ha. she's proven me wrong though.ha. Now the ninja turtle sits quietly besides my monitor.ha. It better not start skipping.. or i'll freak out! ha. Oh! and there's this keychain that took me awhile to figure how i'm suppose to put my keys into it.haha. It's got this interesting little metal dog on it.. now my key bunch got more keychains than keys le.ha. Got dog barking at the frog.. then got special forces on some surf sign.. and some cross hanging around. ha. Very much appreciated! thanks again baby. : )

Ate dinner at some new burger joint called Carls Jr or soemthing... the burgers are BIG! ha. taste great too. BK.. WATCH YOUR BACK! hah. Still remember the tagline for one of it's flyer goes :" She says size doesnt matters. She's lying!" ha.You bet she's lying! The burger's so big i can hardly bite the height of the burger! ha. Had a great heart to heart talk with gerald and lester.. hanged around chating abt things happening around us and issues closer to our hearts.. u know. ha. been ages since we poured out. Feels really good after tat.. knowing we have friends to share our burdens.

Went bowling after tat. 2 rounds of bowl and my finger still hurts. ha. my first round really sucked.. the second was much better with a score of 128 after the stupid computer recored an extra strike in my last frame.. ha. Wonderful to be bowling again! Saw tat time was still early.. we made our way to BAYBEATS2005! ha. some pretty crappy bands and outragous dressing. Ppl all trying to make a fashion statement of some kind. only me in my silly ARMY t-shirt,.ha. Copeland and Concave Scream sound pretty good! didnt hear much from the rest though.. feeling a little numb for loud music anywae. so here i am again.. back at my monitor slapping away on the keyboard. ha

Better take an early nap.. gotta wake up early for work tml.. yawn.

Yawn.. jus woke up to the sound of Scout Styre and M16s plasting off! bang bang bang! 1:36pm.
Michael Jackson playing CS now.. the IMT room now looks practically like a lan shop. Thats life in camp for them.

Think my CO is the most overrated CO in the army. Gave us this 2hr speech this morning regarding safety in training as a follow up action to the string of unfortunate deaths in the armed forces within the 5 weeks. It was unbearable...! So unengaging. All he needed was 15mins to reassure us that SAF hasnt slacken in safety.. and he took 2 hours to bore me to sleep.Commanding Officer..*pui*

Chatted with Ben on MSN this morning.. been really quite some time since we contacted each other le..really brings back memories man. Told him we'll meet up to catch up after Jason is back from Australia visiting his girl.. hee. Dun know if Seow will join us. I really hope he will. Put all those grudges behind us.. its really not worth it.

Jus remembered i had to draw out the proposal for presentation regarding ASK ministries. Hasnt been myself lately.. suddenly dun feel so involve even though i know i need to do something. Gonna find somewhere tonight to think it thru..not home though.. i'll probably sleep.

Argh!!! i'm so bored... the guys are watching some horror movie now.. Doll Master or something. Rather have something constructive to do than to scare myself. Forgotten to bring my wallet out todae.. so hungry. i havent had my lunch yet..haiz. gonna go back and hav a good meal.hee. Its the weekends again.. tml i gotta teach chunsi photoshop.. propose to mushi regarding ASK i hope..cell..wat else? sick.. i gotta get a life! i wonder if i can buy one from ebay.ha.

Went out with chun last night..accompanied her to the library to find some of her reference book. She's so funny..nv seen her so worked up for sch before.. she seemed quite stressed up.. no use asking her to lighten up, she'll jus blow up even faster.ha. At dinner she told me all about her 24 new friends in class.. which none is normal. Somehow she makes it seem like they either have some superhuman ability or some super stylo past or some crazy lifestyle.ha. that's Le Salle for you baby! hang in there ya!

Getting cold in there.. gotta go relieve myself.*shivers* hee.Excuse me ya...

BrEAk OuT!

"so little time so much to do..i rather spend my time with you"

2days since i updated my blog.. cant determine if its becos i havent got anything to write or i dun know where to start.

Its pretty irritating working with the people in my office.. all so irresponsible.. pushing work away whenever they can. They think that i'm garrang or something becos i'm a regular.. but the truth is, i take pride in my job.
i know i cant expect them to go outta the way to get the job done.. but at least have the courtesy to churn out the mininum effort that's required of them. Sometimes i'm so glad that i'm goin back to my company line.

Pretty hectic morning.. alots of things cropped up with the video codecs for some segments we did for the national day parade. had to troubleshoot and re-export a whole bunch of stuff. not hard though.. jus troublesome. After that.. had to do a recording of this short narration. Met this guy called Andy in as the voice talent.. speaking with this strong accent. weird thing is he told he he'd nv study abroad before! I guess he probably watched too much tv then. picked up all the ang mo accent.ha. Anywae.. he's disrupting next fri on his way to Hawaii to study! lucky dude.. allthe baywatch girls waiting for him.ha.

Was out for dinner after work with jane.. i couldnt decide where to anchor for dinner.. pissed myself off. Hate it when i dun have the answers. ha. We settled for this open air cafe/resturant rite outside Wisma. Thinks it's called Tazzara or something.. couldnt pronounce half it's menu.ha. wat a joke.. We ordered a pizza.. all i did was point to the waiter to the menu " i think we'll have THIS.." And he jus mumbles some italian name i presume is the pizza's name..i doubt he knows how to pronounce it himself.ha. "Very well sir". Saw silin walking along the street with this guy.. called them back to join us for a chat.. she looks much more alive now.. she always do. Tat sparkle to her eyes.haha. told her she gotta be a PR officer or something. she carries herself very well.. even when she's troubled.ha.

Oh shit..gotta run.. there's this seminar coming up.. last min arrowed as the PA people. better grab a bite before i go. TAtA

LiFe wiLL noT gO uNnoticed

Why do we find company..fall in love..get married? For passions? People fall in love becos we need witnesses to our lives. There's a billion people on the planet, what does any one life really mean? But in a relationship, you're promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things... all of it, all of the time, every day.


my days are getting boring by the moment.."hello IMTeam!" picking up phone calls and doing vidz. Tats way below my calibre. feels like i'm wasting my time. All i do everydae is Exporting some videos.. stiching some clips.. watching movies.. sleep..eat. Need some stimulant to my life. Thinking of applying for JCC or AirBorne course. ha.

Really glad Vincent got hitched..finally. That leave me one of the few remaining dudes left on the shelf le.ha. Quite sad actually.. not that i'm left without someone.. its jus tat goin thru this phase in life where ppl expects you to be with somebody. Cant i be single??? Used to tell ppl i'm single by choice.. wat the heck.. i even had to tell myself that. ha.Guess i'm still waiting for that someone to swept me off my feet. ha

Really lookin forward to the Bintan trip with phoebe.. a time to get get away from this little island.. hope i dun screw this up.. phoebe would be really dissapointed if i did.. which i always do. ha. Gonna spend alot of time hibernating over there and catching up and eating!!! ha.

Another boring day tomorrow.. i'll bore you more tml ya..*poof!*