hello sinful man

hello sinful man,
what have God done to you to deserve your torment
you shout your love for Him on the altar,
you close your eyes in worship,
you fooled the world before their very eyes.

forgiveness you took for granted,
mercy and grace feels cheap,
you tell yourself it's fine to fall,
cos He'll never know when it's real or false.
silly you, sinful man
you know you've fallen in too deep.

you ought to be shot, to be strucked, towed out of the holy place
cause His name you're not worthy to praise.
stop this act, there's not credit to fool,
there's still time to make amends.

hello Holy God,
what have man done to deserve Your mercy?
Only You can pretend not to see,
how flawed these disgusting man can be.

Cover them with Your holy blood,
call them once again Your child.
I first thought 'Oh silly God!'
but it's me that hurt You most, i forgot.

so sorry Lord for my silly thoughts,
for the unworthy praise i raised to You.
this broken life i raise again
this empty glass i pray You fill.

Take this life and make it Yours
wash my past i want no more.
on the altar once again
Lord be with me, remove my shame.
on this altar once again,
Father, this time i truly want to praise Your name.

a little boy sat on the fine sandy beach.. only wearing a pair of shorts. his hands dirtied digging into the sand before him. The glorious white beach stretched from end to end.. beautiful... void.. empty.. but beautiful. Sun shining down at mid day.. its rays roasting the sand with all its glory. still.. the little boy sat there.. piling sand.

daddy sits a distance behind. watchful eyes never left him.. smiling to himself proud of his son. but he just sits there. watching his beloved son.

sand on sand, layer after layer. what seems like a mud pile slowly fed on the little boy's ambition and imagination. castle walls.. drawn bridge.. towers and tunnels. the little boy smiled to himself. On top of the world is he.

Mid day over.. the raging sun began to fall.. a film of yellow on everything he sees. the castle is almost complete.. magnificent and grand to his eyes. His dirty hands are tired.. eyes yawned teary. The tide is coming in. He knows.. it slowly creeps closer.. and closer.

Daddy knows too.. he knows all too well.. but he sits there. Smiling proud. watching his son.

The little boy sat before his creation.. he slowly understood inevitability. He sat staring as the waves sweep in and out. slowly consuming his castle till there's nothing left. He understood that it was never meant to be.

Now he stood staring at where he's castle once stood.. now all that's left is an empty space. he turned around and looked at his father. Daddy stood up in the setting sun with arms tucked to his side. still smiling. He knew his son learned something precious today that he couldn't learned any other way. The little boy stood up and ran to his father.. shook the sand off his feet and grabbed on to his hands.

It is time to go home. Home to somewhere firm and forever.

Blood Drive

almost didnt have to go back to work today. Cos the command post set up was once again delayed due to live firing in Temple Hill. but still.. i ordered 8 30m power extension drums to be delivered this morning cos i thought i would be goin back.. :( bad move.. now i had to wake up early in the morning to rush down to office and to wait for the delivery man to come so i can pass him the 500bucks. then wat? i havent got much to do back at work on a sat morning. bad move daniel.. sianz.

tried to make the best of today since i'm at work already.. zhaoyi was going to donate blood over at HSA in outram.. so i was thinkin i hitch a ride over there and shunbian make my first donation of blood! ha.

i try 2 times to make a blood donation when i was still in jc. Failed to do so cos once i was just having flu 2 days before. so they rejected me.. the next time they rejected me was because the queue was too long and they were closing soon. asked me to come back and queue again after i queued for 2 long hrs!!! well..

This time round.. it was pretty smooth.. except for the fact that i forgotten to bring along my 11b! good thing they acknowledged my drivin license as well. the was no queue.. jus a questionnaire to fill asking if i had sex in all sorts of combinations in the last 12 months. haha. just ticked thru and there i was sitting on the comfy chair in the donation room with a sticker on my chest which reads :"Be Nice To Me. This Is My First Donation". ha.

i'm surprised that they even gave me local anesthesia before the big tube was inserted into my skin. ha. was actually expecting some pain but i didnt even know the tube was already inserted when i looked away! haha. when the nurse wasnt looking... i gave myself a pinch to see if the anesthesia really worked.. hmmm.. really no pain. So i just continue to squeeze the blood pack shaped stress ball in my palm, hoping my blood could fill the bag faster.

took only around 5mins or less to fill the bag.. then this Filipino medical worker came over to retrieve the bag. i asked her if i could give another bag since it took so little time and i'm still feeling ok. too bad.. she refused me.. one person one bag she says.. but i so vividly remembered that my friend gave 2 bags when the blood drive came to sch. but then again.. that was quite some time ago.. they could have changed the policy le..

anyway.. they wrapped up the spot when they injected me with a bandage. At first they were looking in the drawer next to me and they ran out of coloured bandages that dun look too sissy. but they were only left with the pink one. the medical worker held up the pink bandage in his hand and looked at me.. i looked him back shaking my head.. guess he caught my message. ha. i would rather let my hand bleed dry than to step out with that bright pink bandage on my arm!!! haha.

dun understand why dun they just simply use white bandages instead. He searched around and found a purple one.. better than nothing i suppose. i'm wearing long sleeves anyway.. just gonna cover it up with it. ha. later i realised that there is also another green bandage. the one that zhaoyi got. but it was even more ridiculous cos the green bandage had drawings of dinosaurs on it! ha. i was having a good laugh at him.. good thing i didnt get the green one instead. :)

well well.. my first donation.. thats about it. I think i'll carry on to make regular donations after this. Anyone wanna join me please ask me along eh... my next donation is in dec! :) Well.. please be reminded that your blood will alway regenerate de.. you're losing nothing giving blood.. further more.. your giving life! the blood bank is always in need of new donors. so please give if you can. You get free refreshment too after the donation you know!(well.. thats not the point..but it true) haha.

Anywae.. received my results for my Effective Comms. Thank God i passed! hee.. my 8 pages of rubbish at least counted for something eh.. hee. saved me some time and money not to take that module.. thank you Jesus

my first timer sticker.. actually quite diu lian to wear this around. ha


purple bandage.. no dino.

sponge for me to squeeze while my blood is draining outta my body. ha. think it used to be a ball or a heart or something. Now they getting creative already. hee.

part1

what a long day.. what a long week.. cant remember when i started getting busy. just seems like i've been rushing from one thing to another since.. let me see.. sat? blink of an eye.. thursday is gone as well.. tml's the end of the week again. and so much has happened since.

jackson's wedding, Rev Tony, range, aaft and flunking it, temple hill deployment, paya leba air base trip, plasma galore, black hawk down, ice cream offer 2 for $1.80, new battery. where do i start?

Probably start by saying sorry to the birthday people this month that i've forgotten. Totally lost track of time. i just realise that today's the 4th already. So happy birthday to you know who u are. ha. Well.. i'm nv good at these birthdays thingie. another day.. another year.. may the good Lord bless you all. hee

went to jackson's solemnisation on sat afternoon. a simple affair. too simple maybe. nevertheless, as long as the two of them are committed, nothing is too fancy or too simple. it really is about them. But somehow i got involved as a camera man for his wedding. :(

cant believe he didnt engage a camera man to document this big day! the couple even arrived late for the solemnisation after msging us the night before not to be late! We were all there waiting.. i saw him coming. i stretched out my hand offering my congratulatory shake.. he hands out his palm as well. Our hands made contact. i say " Congrats" but i felt something cold in my hands. hmmm. next thing i heard,:" thanks daniel, can help me take a few photos later?"

he turned and shook the hands all sticking out to him in congratulations leaving a canon ixus digital camera in my hand.

the next thing i know, i'm his wedding photographer for the afternoon. haha.

i kept feelin that they kindda missed the point. Invited friends and signed a piece of paper that they hardly understand. I see formalities more than love. i see protocol more than affections. i'm sorry that i'm saying this. no offence, but that's how i feel. I still wish you well jackson. May God bless your marriage.

Weddings are funny events, especially when you've got friends like mine. Like a army gathering, all my buddies were there. We were laughing at everything and anything. laughed till we all had cramps. ha. it's been sometime. Old friends, old memories, same of affiliation. 1880 sync. ha. Guan Jie was even recalled back to neesoon camp for Silent Mob halfway thru the lunch reception. How unfortunate.. or we would hav hung out a little longer that afternoon already. :(

kindda late already.. still got lots to share.. but first.. gotta catch up on some sleep first. yawn. So to those studying hard now for exams, jiayou! For those who are enduring their work (i see hands raised!!ha)hang in there.. the week is ending soon. For those who are restless from everything else.. sleep early and rest well.. for those who are doing well.. please spread a little sunshine.

Be back tml.. astalavista