went to give my white blood cells today again. Sat there for 7hrs. tot i could use this time to do some revision for my examination tml.. well.. i was wrong.. the stupid chair was too comfy to study la.. i kept falling asleep. haha.
thank God my white blood cells were very much acceptable to uncle steven.. cos i heard alot of people couldn't donate in the first place. The 2 times i when for the donation i've already seen so many people who came for the screening being rejected for donation already. Poor auntie Sally, always see her so washed out but still so strong. Thanks for the hospitality, for all the food you bought me! :)
Min Yee told me today that actually her dad not doing too well. Doc told them that they already did all they could already. so could only sustain him thru all the transfusion and the machines and hopefully he turns around. Reminded me of the time when my grand ma was in hospital.. knowing that she was fading away.. but still praying for a miracle. You tell yourself that you gotta prepare yourself for the lost eventually. But then again.. can you ever prepare for such a lost? i doubt so. End of the day.. all the preparations boils down to tears and sadness. Nothing can prepare you for the lost. trust me.
However.. you know that you'll have to get over it somehow. let go.. move on. And you eventually will. Moving on is not about forgetting the person so that you dun feel the pain.. it's about accepting the fact that he/she is gone. Holding on tight to the memories that you had together.. holding on the lessons you've learned in the relationship. I still remember the faces of the friends i lost. I do visit them once in a while.. afraid that i've forgotten about them. i try not to. I tot i'd never get over their deaths.. but you'll be surprise how forgetful people are.
I'm sorry if i ever forgotten. You'll be glad that your dismiss managed to encourage others to live better.. including me. How ever much i hate what you did.. i hope you're in a better place than we are now.
well.. may the Lord's consolation and comfort and peace falls on weary hearts tonight. Refreshed when we all get up in the morning.. for His mercies are new every morning and His grace is sufficient for me! Amen
